I am what you call a failure. Because when I tried my best not to fall for you, I failed. When I tried to make you fall for me, I failed. When I tried to make us friends again, I failed. And when I tried not to regret it all, I failed. I am what you call a failure.
Its funny how, whenever I hear, see or feel something beautiful, something positive, meaningful or gentle, I can't help but think of how these things remind me of you. I really hope that someday, you will know what I mean.
This is a letter I wrote that I never had the balls to send.
I once said that I was in love with you. You told me that I was not. You said that when I did fall in love, it would be incomparable to any other feeling. I didn't say anything cause I was so surprised that you would say that. But now want to tell you that you're wrong. What I have isn't infatuation or idolization. You're not perfect, I can see that: You forget things really easily, you keep staring off in the space sometimes when we talk. You put yourself down a lot and are too modest and pessimistic when you shouldn't be. Not to mention your constant craving for chocolate. But don't you understand? These flaws are the things that make you so innocent and pure. Its the little things too, like when you blush, you always go through this little routine. You always try to hide your teeth when you smile, then you look at your feet and then you brush your curls away from your face and finally you look at me like the thought is still lingering in your mind. When you laugh, you don't try to hide it. You look like your running out of breath most of the time. Or how your eyes are like pure glacial water, as blue as blue can get. When you look at me, your eyes make me feel warm, but I shiver nevertheless. They say that eyes are the windows into the soul and with you, that is no lie. I swear, if I stare long enough into your eyes, I could feel a breeze on my face, even in a stuffy room. Or when you smile, just simply smile, those dimples form and you give a grin that would make ice melt, or shame Hollywood actresses. Hell, I'm not giving you justice saying these things, a smile like yours could turn water into wine. Or when I told you I was falling in love with you and there were tears building in your eyes. When that happened, I swear, I could feel my body go cold and numb, as if my own physical being was trying to punish me for making you cry; for being such a moron. How I couldn't stop imagining me physically kicking myself for the rest of that month. How, every time I see, or hear, or taste, or feel, or smell something amazing or unique, something beautiful, colorful, gentle, soft, curious, innocent or striking, I can't help but think about you. You're not in my mind every waking second, but you correlate so well with these characteristics that I've never gone through a single day without thinking about you at least once. And what's more, I can't stop smiling when I do. I know you're in a serious relationship and I'm sorry, I just couldn't help myself. I thought that I needed to tell you this. I thought I had to take a chance, cause I felt this way so strongly. I'm starting to make very little sense now, so I'll get to the point. I know that I can't force you to love me back, but look, if this isn't love, then shoot me, put me out of my damn misery, cause there can't be any other feeling better than this. So I hope that someday, when we pass by and you give me that awkward glance and that shy wave hello, I hope you look straight into MY eyes, cause they'll always be looking straight into yours. I hope that you'll forgive me for what I did that day, how I pulled our friendship apart with three simple words. I hope that you will read all this one day and you will realize that what I said... that I was falling in love with you...
Here are my qoutes Only few of them but very....emotianal
1. I love standing in the rain...because then no one knows im crying
2. A hot tear slowly slides down my face...why is that not suprising
fave qoutes!!!!3.You hurt me and you dont even know it
4.When i heard the news a hot tear slowly slid down my face...why is it not suprising that it hurt.
5.carta de amor--- means love story in spanish
6.My love doesnt matter right know. i'll do anything for a friend...sadly
7.My mind doesnt want to continue wanting you but my heart wont let me stop
8.Secrets DONT make friends
9.Theres a point in life when you realize who matters.. who doesnt..and who is just wasting your time
10. I lvoe you and you dont even know it
11.It official..my life sucks... why is that not suprising
ALL OF THESE QOUTES WHERE MADE AND THOUGHT OF BY ME.. IF YOU SEE THEM SUMWHERE ELSE THAN SOMEONE ELSE PROBABLY THOUGHT OF IT TOO I DIDNT TAKE THESE OR STEAL THESE
ENJOY....most of these ive used myself.... i have on on right know..the first one..all of these are from real life experiences and are made for real feelings..thx and its official my life sucks[color=black][/color]
If you opened up and saw just how much you mean to me, you would go to bed every night knowing that someone out there cares for you, supports you, loves you, admires you and is willing to stay close by your side till the end of his life.